This is something I've been meaning to post for weeks now.
Someone called Tim came in to Leeds Children's Circus and lead two sessions. Afterwards we picked his brain on how to run workshops (and related topics).
What he said was quite revealing as to why I couldn't be a professional circus performer.
My inability to get a job has lead me, since this year or maybe last year, to think about being self-employed. But as what? Well, how about a juggler (or a circus performer)?
Well there are a few problems.
The first is that I'm not a good performer, in fact I'm poor. So clearly that has ramifications. A professional circus performer is not necessarily a 'good' circus performer I'll admit, professional just means you manage to make a living out of it. But still I get very nervous. It's not really a lack of confidence so much as getting very irrationally nervous. I'm not a natural performer and I don't think it's necessarily something I could learn. I literally wouldn't know how to even learn it.
I'm also not very business-minded. It's not in my nature to bargain or haggle or look for guarantees. So basically I'd struggle with the performing side and the business side. So in other words, the whole thing.
Another one is money, the travel and the hotels (or lodgings of some kind). If you wanted to teach workshops you need a lot of equipment which costs money and tends to get broken and/or lost. I have a friend who's looking into this and he;'s got £40,000 or something in the bank. He can afford to run at a loss and live comfortably for a few years. I have about £23 in the bank. Oh and I can't drive so how would I transport the gear? I don't know if I could learn to drive either, as someone who suffers from panic attacks.
So the main problem would be not being good enough at the performing-side, not being good enough at the business-side and the high likelihood of running at a loss which I can't afford. So literally every part of it I would fail at.